Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Weary Mama, Loved by God

I stay tired these days. Many of you are nodding your head smiling, because you know I've had a third child, and you know the sweet blessings of God sometimes feel awfully heavy when you forget Who's carrying them... Or, heck... Sometimes they exhaust us even when our eyes are firmly on God. Because yes, God is our rest, but on this earth we don't get to fully experience all His gifts like we will in Heaven. So yes, on earth I lust for 5 hours of consecutive sleep, but I'm actually much more desperate for the rest that comes from His promises. 

(Yet if you stick a Bible and a pillow in front of me these days, I'm ashamed to say I'll grab the pillow most often. Sigh.)

I'm rambling. 

Recently, I've been brainstorming ways to bring in some income while still staying with my precious children. And the one thing that irks me about it is that I feel CALLED to glorify God, especially through words and writing. I'm not saying "ministry writing" has to be where I make my money. I remember some apostles who were CALLED to the gospel but made and sold tents on the side. I need to figure out my tent making, and this blog isn't it. But in brainstorming income ideas, I keep thinking about my callings... And my desire to encourage you. 

So hi.
I'm tired too. Just like you. 
Although our struggles are different than mine. Maybe yours are emotional, relational, financial, spiritual... Usually it's a mix of a lot of these, isn't it?

You may not feel like you have much to offer right now. I certainly feel wrung out, limp, exhausted, and powerless. 

But that's not the truth of who we are. 

We have the power of the resurrected Christ in us. 

I had to remind myself of that tonight. And I really wanted to also remind you. 

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hang in there, Rachel. The beautiful blessing of children is both exhilarating and exhausting.

Marisa said...

I'm so glad to see you writing here again--I've missed you! I've been wondering about little Owen and how things are going.

Your blog was such an encouragement and ministry to me while we were praying to be blessed with a little one. In His timing, He gave us a healthy boy who is now nearly 9 months old. Please keep writing and sharing. It doesn't have to be great insight or earth-shaking truths each time. Just seems like we're sisters in these journeys and it helps to keep in contact with each other.

Marisa said...

I'm so glad to see you writing here again--I've missed you! I've been wondering about little Owen and how things are going.

Your blog was such an encouragement and ministry to me while we were praying to be blessed with a little one. In His timing, He gave us a healthy boy who is now nearly 9 months old. Please keep writing and sharing. It doesn't have to be great insight or earth-shaking truths each time. Just seems like we're sisters in these journeys and it helps to keep in contact with each other.