Our Christmas was fantastic.
It feels good to end the year so well, surrounded by loved ones and so much to be thankful for, during a season of Christ and Advent (though, as always, clouded by my own sin and busyness and materialism and stress – but still somehow wonderful despite me!).
It feels even better to face a fresh start. A new year. A blank calendar. A chance to reflect on the past and set goals for the future. A time to dream big and lean on God with our greatest, most frightening hopes.
What do I want for 2012?
Here is what I want:
To love better. To work harder at home. To say “yes” more. To be thinner. 🙂 To support my husband. To be more thoughtful. To leave my own head. To become an extrovert. To run in races. To sell our home. To learn to live on less. To be more generous. To live with hands wide open, so that as blessings of time, money, stuff flow in, they instantly flow out. To write more. To be fearlessly creative. To not care what others think. To stand up for myself. To have pretty hair. 🙂 To spend more time with my girls. To go… just go… even if we don’t know what that means… because neither did Abraham when he left Ur. To live as though Christ is center of all – because He is. To read the whole Bible. To study a few books of the Bible in depth. To feel my passion for Christ reawaken. To drop legalism. To embrace grace. To eat better. To teach my girls to eat better. To cook more. To tackle some big, secret projects. 🙂 To drop other big, secret projects. 🙂 To shun comfort in favor of growth. To delete “circumstances” from my personal definition of contentment. To stop thinking of excuses. To ski. To play tennis. To take trips. To pray for those who wait. To think globally. To love globally. To encourage others to not only adopt, but to see the God-story that is played out through adoption. To celebrate birthdays in my family like they’re going out of style. To end the year amazed at how far we’ve come and head spinning at how we ever got there.
And there’s more. Brad and I still haven’t sat down to goal-plan for 2012, but I hope we will this weekend. I do not want an accidental life. I am ready for all that God has for us.
How about you? Are you making plans for the life God has for you?