There is never enough time.
It is late at night, but sleep eludes my weary eyes. So I do what any mother would… I go kiss my sleeping girls once more. Amelia’s eyes pop open as I kiss her, and her arms automatically vice-grip my neck, demanding to be held. My heart melts as we ease back into a rocking chair together. Finger in mouth, she sighs with relief to see that she will be rocked, and she instantly closes her eyes. I kiss her repeatedly and run my fingers across her silky baby skin, knowing from my experience with Caroline that these days are far too short.
Time is always limited. Isn’t that a theme of this life? Isn’t that why we’re always in a rush? Babies keep growing, the calendar pages fall, and so much feels wasted.
And then I smile, remembering what Anne Voskamp said about time… that we Christians forget that we have infinite time. That we should be the last ones to believe that time is slipping away, when every tick of the clock brings us one step closer to eternity.
What is it about “eternity” that sounds so comforting? I grapple for thoughts. Jesus is the first thought. I am finally learning to love Him in a way that makes heaven sound like the eternal honeymoon it is. Still, this love often fails to translate into my life lived well here on earth. What can I do today with the knowledge that time is eternal? What is the practical application? How can it help me in a world of count-downs and alarm clocks and deadlines? In a world when eternity seems light years away?
My mind wanders to the worries of my heart. To the troubles of today. Those things that make me want to cry. And God’s Word springs to mind.
“For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.” 2 Cor. 4:17
My heart protests. My troubles are not light and momentary! I don’t know what troubles the original author was referring to, but they clearly were not as hefty as mine.
Even as I think this, I know I am wrong. I know the original author was referring to troubles like persecution, death, and great hardship. So why did he refer to them as “light and momentary troubles”? I open my Bible to read the surrounding verses.
“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
When we fix our eyes on the unseen… on the eternal… on the God who saves and promises redemption and healing and renewal and heaven for His children forevermore…
We fix our eyes on eternity. We fix our eyes on what will be permanent, rather than on the temporal problems we face. When we can do that, our troubles seem light and momentary. If our lives on earth are only a vapor, how much smaller are our troubles? Much smaller I am sure.
Yes, on this earth, there is not enough time. Thank You God, there is not enough time on this earth. Eternity approaches. We are fixing our eyes on it.