|7 years ago|
My childhood best friend and I shared many things throughout our lives. We shared friends, clothes, school-bus rides, beds, cries, boyfriends… (Ahem… but that’s another story. One which we easily lived to tell! Or not tell, ha!) We encouraged each other spiritually… and sometimes, we spent precious God-given time in the pits of sin… at the same time.
The other day, we remembered our time in the pit.
We don’t laugh about it. They weren’t our “glory days.” It still hurts to think about the wedge we placed between ourselves and the Savior who loved us, even as we drove the nails through His flesh.
My heart aches often for the high school students in our youth group. They look so much like my friend and I looked as we left for college… on fire for God and strong in conviction. I pray with my entire heart that college draws them closer to their Savior, rather than doing to them what it did to us.
If only I could explain to those girls what temptation awaits them. The selfish desires that they think they are strong enough to fight in their own power. How I would tell them to cling to the power of the Holy Spirit, rather than the willpower of their own flesh. If pride comes before the fall, then sweet young girls, humble yourselves!
I am so in awe of the way that God redeems all. Even our pits of sin. He does not let them go to waste, but turns it around to serve His purposes.
|My friend and my babies. Amelia looks 12 years old in this one! 🙂|
Still, it hurts to remember my sin. I never want to spend another day seeking MYSELF when I could instead spend it seeking MY SAVIOR. It is such a struggle. Even this week, I’ve come face to face with the strength of my own fleshly desires. But my hope is in the truth that HE is the one who draws me near as I draw near to Him. As I keep my eyes upon Him, I will surely learn that His allure is stronger than even the depths of my sinful heart. He is so good. We are more than victorious – already conquerors – through Him!