Perhaps this is word vomit and thoughts that I should keep to myself so I won’t be put to shame if none of them ever come to pass, but…
I want to teach.
I am embarrassed to admit that. I realize that wanting to teach God’s Word might imply that I think I have some special gift or knowledge. But that is not what I am saying! I just want to be used. And I see again and again in Scripture where God uses the weak, the empty, the poor, the unable. He MAKES them able to serve His purposes.
And I want to be used.
I am crying out to God for it.
I ache for it.
Here is the thing. I know that God is moving. He is acting, and His perfect plans are progressing. There is nothing that I can add or subtract to all that God intends to do. His glory will be known.
I just want to be a part of the process.
What if I sit idly by? Will God stop loving me? No! I am His child forever!
Even so, I DON’T WANT TO SIT IDLY BY!
what do I do?
How do I respond?
Where do I serve?
So, yes, I will wait in His Word, continuing to seek Him. But I also wonder whether I should just DO something. SOMEthing. SOMETHING!
Is all of the Christian life a lesson in learning to wait well on the Lord?