It started out small. It started, in fact, with homemade laundry detergent. She passed on the recipe, encouraging others to also step out of their comfort zones to save money for the sake of giving it away. Small steps towards favoring Jesus over the comforts of our world. Lately, however, Frances steps towards discomfort for Christ have gotten big. Messy, and broken, and beautifully big.
You see, Frances has recently become a foster mom. Her life has gotten messy. And every single time I read her blog, I cry. She is broken. Her life is broken. The children she ministers to in her home are broken. Yet she is THRIVING in Christ.
One Bible verse has been haunting me lately: “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.”
I do not mourn. Sure, I might mourn because someone offended me, or because I had a stressful week, or even because I want to hold Amelia so badly that it hurts. I mourn for selfish ME. For others, I rarely mourn.
But Jesus mourned.
Pastors who cry for the lost souls in their churches mourn.
Foster parents who love precious children for the little time they have with them mourn.
Here’s the thing… when your heart is broken for those things that break the heart of God, you can be sure that someday, you will be comforted. He will be victorious. We are meant to mourn for all that is wrong in this world. We mourn, because God has placed the truth in our hearts that THIS IS NOT THE WAY THINGS ARE MEANT TO BE.
Oh, how I want to mourn. I want my heart to be so in line with Christ that I can only shake my head at the heartache of this Earth – and then rest in the assurance that someday, He will make all things new.
What this has to do with homemade laundry detergent, I’m not really sure. Perhaps I just hope that an effort to break the menial selfish habits in my life will lead to bigger things. I pray that our family is on the brink of something bigger.