It’s time for a nice, round update on life.
We are set to get a referral any day now.
They SAY that we should hold a picture of our sweet baby by mid July! I feel a bit burned from having unrealized adoption timelines set in my heart, so this time, I’ll believe it when I see it!
The picture will both thrill and torture us, as we won’t travel to Uganda to meet our little one until November at the earliest.
In any case, I’m ready to even feel tortured over this little one. It’s driving me crazy how “not real” it feels when we continually talk about our never-ending adoption with friends and family. A coworker even asked the other day, “hey, did y’all ever end up adopting?” Knife to the heart. Yes, I know it was 14 months ago when we told you we started the process, and it will AT LEAST be another 6 months before it’s complete, but we’re REALLY going to adopt.
I don’t mean to sound like I mind that she asked. I’m actually so thankful for anyone who gives a rip, because our story sure has gotten long and boring to most. I get heart pains when I think that so few will be excited when this little one comes home, in contrast to how much love surrounded the birth of Caroline. Does orphan care lead to a lonely life? I sure hope not.
Onto a slightly different topic…
Our time with “Jay” has been going well.
I am constantly surprised both by how fast our love grows for him AND by how difficult he can be to spend time with. I guess God knows that we need Him to increase our love so that we can handle the stress of a hyper 12 year old who has had little guidance and many heartbreaks in his life.
Friends often ask if we’re going to adopt Jay. We don’t know. In Alabama, we’re not even legally able to pursue it while we’re still in the midst of our Uganda process. But in my heart, I hope that God gives us the mountains of strength and wisdom and courage and faith it would take to lovingly parent someone who was born before I was 15 and has seen more tragedy than I can imagine. I can’t see into the future to know God’s will, but I know that God loves orphans, and is able to empower us… so it is a possibility.
is our never-ending joy in all of our torn thoughts about Uganda and Jay. Just when my heart is ready to bleed at the thought of how broken the world is, I see my sweet toddler’s face. She is anything BUT broken. In fact, multiple people have described her with the same phrase: “so well adjusted!” Thank God for our Little Miss Sunshine!