Our pet fish committed suicide. He jumped out of his bowl several weeks ago.
My mom admits that she’s more nervous to leave their dog with us than we are to leave our daughter with them!
Caroline has never EVER cried about going to mother’s-day-out. She has, however, cried on a Friday night as we excitedly exclaim that “there’s no school tomorrow! It’s a family day!” (ha!)
These (silly) tidbits did not make it to our completed home study. While home studies are pretty exhaustive, they can’t cover every fear, and every area where a parent may fall short. As hard as they try, I’m not sure that they answer this simple question: Are you ready to parent this child?
I was pretty frustrated at myself yesterday. I probably shouldn’t share my dirt on a public forum, but I’m going to anyway. My intent in blogging is not to present myself as a glowing example. If you’re looking for that, there are many blogs I’d be happy to point you to. I am very aware that I am on the rougher-edged side of “in-the-works.” But I think there can be good in showing my ugliness so that others can watch as a mighty, compassionate God eventually transforms the tiny bits of who I am.
I was disappointed in myself because I found myself worrying MORE ABOUT WHAT OTHERS WILL THINK OF US as we follow the “less popular” side of our adoption calling than about DOING WHAT GOD HAS FOR US. I know this is vague, but it was a powerful sin in my heart yesterday.
It is a sin that I thought I was “above.”
You see, adopting a precious, tiny baby – even one of a different race – is kind of a popular thing to do. But what if God calls us to something less “cute”? Medical special needs, or an older child, etc… Will family and friends think it’s “cute” then?
But God reminded me of some simple truths yesterday… Adoption is just one tiny piece of our journey to follow Jesus. As we grow in Him and live more boldly for His glory, Jesus PROMISED that others would despise us for it. As EVERY BIT of our lives someday look more like His, (and not just because we adopted a child,) the more those who forsake Christ will also forsake us.
No one has EVER despised me for living too boldly in Christ.
So if I REALLY want Jesus to grow me into a FULL disciple of His, then I better get over the popularity contest.
16I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves.
17″Be on your guard against men; they will hand you over to the local councils and flog you in their synagogues. 18On my account you will be brought before governors and kings as witnesses to them and to the Gentiles. 19But when they arrest you, do not worry about what to say or how to say it. At that time you will be given what to say, 20for it will not be you speaking, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.
21″Brother will betray brother to death, and a father his child; children will rebel against their parents and have them put to death. 22All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved. 23When you are persecuted in one place, flee to another. I tell you the truth, you will not finish going through the cities of Israel before the Son of Man comes.
24″A student is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master. 25It is enough for the student to be like his teacher, and the servant like his master. If the head of the house has been called Beelzebub,[c] how much more the members of his household!
26″So do not be afraid of them. There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made known. 27What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs. 28Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell. 29Are not two sparrows sold for a penny[d]? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. 30And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
32″Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before my Father in heaven. 33But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown him before my Father in heaven.
34″Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. 35 For I have come to turn
” ‘a man against his father,
a daughter against her mother,
a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law –
36a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household.'[e]
37″Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; 38and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.
40″He who receives you receives me, and he who receives me receives the one who sent me. 41Anyone who receives a prophet because he is a prophet will receive a prophet’s reward, and anyone who receives a righteous man because he is a righteous man will receive a righteous man’s reward. 42And if anyone gives even a cup of cold water to one of these little ones because he is my disciple, I tell you the truth, he will certainly not lose his reward.”