Am I overwhelmed with joy, or just plain overwhelmed? Isn’t it funny that I’m not sure of the answer!
I have laughed out loud lately at the amazing Providence of God in my life. Something is happening in me, and to our family. I am seeing glimpses that God may allow us to pour out our lives in bigger ways than I once hoped; I am in awe of God’s grace on me, a girl who once would’ve been satisfied with an easy life, two children, and a white picket fence.
When I think specifically, though, of some of the changes we are considering in our lives, I realize that I do not fully grasp how “in control” God is. If I did, then my heart wouldn’t start beating hard in anxiety!
I am thankful for the video we watched in Small Group on Sunday. Louie Giglio’s talk from the “How Great is Our God Tour” was a 40 minute tour of the unimaginable bigness of the galaxy, created by a God who “breathes out stars,” according to Scripture. It ended with an equally amazing tour of God at work in the tiniest cells of our body, even holding them together. We are fearfully and wonderfully made by a God who is both more immense and more intimate than we can fathom.
So who I am to have anxiety about whether I will be able to fulfill the calling of God in my little life? Yes, I am frail. Yes, I am weak. But GOD IS GIGANTIC. He is NEAR. He breathes out stars… fireballs that are TRILLIONS of times bigger than our entire world, and yet loved us enough to become a baby on this speck of dust called earth. His love is as big as He is. And He is in control. So what if I can’t do it? He can. He will.